Errr…the fact of the matter is that I am 19 :|
I know it doesn’t sound like “I am Harry Potter”, nor like “I am a vampire” /). But still, somehow being a “Harry Potter” or a “Vampire” still doesn’t scare me as much as the whole idea of being in the last of your teens. I am 19. Think about it! Doesn’t this imply that I am no more going to be a teenager in the count of almost 6 months?! And doesn’t that imply that people are going to completely ignore my view when I would be shouting around saying, “I’m still a kid, yaar!” And doesn’t that imply that I am no more going to be identified as a kid?! And doesn’t that mean … well! Whatever!! These are a little too many implications , I guess! :-s
Well, to be very precise, I am scared of the idea of growing up :|. The other day, I was telling this to a friend.
Hold on. I’ll just let you into this part of the conversation.
Me: “When I was gonna be 18, I was hell excited. But now it’s getting ACTUALLY a lil scary”
Him: “Hehe..I was excited when I was turning 15; never been very excited after that :P ”
Good for him, I must say. It was indeed amazing to see how my excitement to be 18 just kept on decreasing just after my 18th birthday :|. Now I know, that I am not a kid anymore; that I am completely and solely responsible for my thoughts and actions; that my actions don’t just affect me, but also a whole lot of other people whose prestige and respect and bla bla bla are dependent on my behaviour, actions and perspective. Isn’t this more than enough to scare a kid? :O ( Aahh paleez! i AM a kid!! For heaven’s sake )
Then, there are a few people I have had an awesome relationship with in my childhood, and when I see them growing up, some in their mid 20’s now, some in their late 20’s now, it scares me! They are hell busy! They just don’t have ANY time to breathe! They can’t call me up anymore (hardly receive my calls)! They are tensed about their careers! They are running all day and night to make a living! AND anyone would bet their lives to say that these people are really successful! I am not sure if I want that kind of life :-??
If that’s what happens when you grow up, I am extremely happy as a kid! I refuse to accept that I am a grown up! And anyways, most people who meet me for the first time, always end up thinking I am 16 years old or something :P. Feels nice, actually :P
Mummmmmmmmmmmmaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa :P
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